SuMiMaSeN!!

I just have to say this. What was the past, is the past and that is where it should stay? Is in the past.

So, painting is almost done, hey I find it fun to paint. ^_^ Nice and slow and do it right! I'm glad Mom got someone to help and glad Summer helped me.

I know it is sad it's taking me so long to get my room done, Mom's going crazy, well yesterday she was and I just left her hanging. O_-; I am sorry about that.

O_o Man, terrible mood. I need to go read my Bible. I'm getting the Message Bible, when I get my check. For myself. O_-; Old King James is sorta hard for me to understand at times. Heh!

I'm just upset. I feel like such a loser and etc. O_o I was so terrible to Mom at least she tells me things bluntly and she said she isn't going to baby me or what not. I didn't want that....never have. I always wanted her understanding and acceptings of others. O_-;

We all have faults. We just got to accept each others faults.

I just been thinking alot and talking to God. I think I need to set aside some time in a moment. No NOW! (actually leaves computer)

Comes back after a few minutes of praying and talking to God.

I seriously want to be a better person this year. I also want to stop talking about Mom behind her back. YES! I have done it. I am telling it all.

Man, I am so hungry. I'm so ready to be done with that room. O_-; Tomorrow is the day everything is moved back in and rearranged before I go to work that night.

School starts back the 16th. I'm excited and ready for it to begin. (sorta)

And best of news. I found a dsl I believe that will work. EARTHLINK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!! Fast connection. I think I want to do some more work on some videos too...before school starts. At least with faster connection and more memory I can actually do those videos I have played in my head. O_o Man, I have missed doing videos..ya have no idea.

I'm going to go read my Bible now, I'm behind and really need to catch up. I need God's word right now more then ever. O_-; Oh, my just came in with the Sonic, so reading after food. ^_^ I got a violin book, so when I learn the violin P.J. (if I am capable of doing so, which I will pratice hard) My friend Amy, a really nice Christian girl I met online and she talks to me. ^_^ She send me this great violin book. Don't worry, she is trusted. (she has been through a lot and I can tell she needs friends) She plays the flute. She has to get the one she just got fixed.

Anyway, this year is going to be so much better. ^_^ All I really want to do is do something to further my relationship this year to to the next level with God. I need that. ^_^ Lets do it together Jesus!

^_^ Yes, that's also something I say to Jesus..heh! I'm so lame. I'm a tart. (no ask)

I had an interesting dream...O_o Was sorta odd...anyway, no more time about this stuff right now. I just wanted to get on and ramble and let ya know what's going on and etc.

I love you all! God Bless each of you! Good Luck with everything and Blessed you be this year! 2007 is going to a year of fire. ^_^ I really would love to be there to see some of it too. Please allow me to be Lord.

Christy